Steven M. Bell

Music

Honest songs about the battles we fight inside and the grace that meets us there.

• Wars Inside My Head

  A friend once told me their brain never shuts off. It keeps replaying the past, wondering if that's who they really are and whether people still see that old version of them. I felt that one in my bones. The things I did while drinking can feel like they belong to a different man than the sober one writing this. Wars Inside My Head is for anyone stuck in that fight between who they were and who they're trying to be.

• Not Again

  This one's my story, and probably a lot of yours. I'd wake up hungover, my wife and kids watching me be that guy again, and I'd swear “not again.” Then I'd do it again. I was wrecking my marriage and the people I loved most over a bottle. Not Again is for anyone who's made that promise to the mirror and broken it more times than they can count.

• Small Town Halo

  This one's for my hometown of Brownfield, Texas. Small towns are just different. Any small town in Texas gets this song, and probably most across America. We've got a moral code, we mean it, and we live by it… mostly. We might get a little frisky on Saturday night, but we're in the pew Sunday morning asking for forgiveness. That's the halo. It's a little crooked, but we wear it proud.

• I'm Letting Go

  This one's for everyone who's risen from the ashes and started over. We all have a redemption story, and some of us have more than one. Mine was finally beating the bottle after it beat me for years. I'm Letting Go is about that moment you quit holding on to what's killing you and let grace take over.

• I Cry to Heaven

  I started this song years ago, writing about the people I've lost, the same ones I wrote about in my memoir, Uncomfortable Truth. I could never finish it. Then Iryna Zarutska was killed on a train, and not long after, Charlie Kirk was assassinated. All that grief and anger finally broke something loose, and the rest of the song poured out. I Cry to Heaven is for the ones we've lost, and for every time the world leaves us with nothing to do but look up.

About

Steven M. Bell is a singer-songwriter and author from Lubbock, Texas. He's a husband, a father of two sons, a Catholic convert, and a man in recovery from addiction.

His songs and books come from the same place: telling the truth about struggle, and about the grace of God that meets us in it.

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